Location: The SOPHA
You may remember the behind the scenes blog post I wrote pertaining to my shoot with Wicked Mojo Photography. I mentioned that I seem to work best when I look nothing like myself-the more extreme the outfit or makeup, the more I feel like I can get out of my own head and become another character. It’s harder for me to just be natural or wear something similar to what I normally wear because then I worry about my own flaws and insecurities.
The very first thing we shot when I walked into the studio that day, was me. In the clothes I was already wearing, the most basic makeup look and nothing done to my hair (I may have brushed it at that point).
On the inside, I was terrified. I wanted to shoot this look, I had mentioned it when we were planning our shoot, and gone over pictures of natural looking subjects for some ideas. But there is nothing quite like the moment when you realize your “motivation” (you know, “what’s my motivation?!” actor-type-thing) is to be ...you.
Hmm. While I am me pretty much me, oh I don’t know, 100% of the time, it’s hard when you want to express you in the most you way...know what I mean?
We all know (well, I know at least) there is a tendency to act differently when alone vs when with a significant other, vs with a close friend, vs with strangers. It’s like that. Which “me” do I want to let show? I’m torn between showing the “natural” model me- knowing I’m being photographed, posing for it, but trying not to exaggerate my angles too much - and the natural me...not thinking about being a model and making sure I look good, but just being me. Which means smiling, joking, laughing, and other expressions that are rarely photographed during the styles of photo shoots I tend to do.
Luckily for me, we started talking about life and random events during the set up, and continued throughout the shoot, so I wasn’t thinking 100% of the time “Oh, am I smiling? Should I be? Am I moving my hands around while talking without thinking about it?”, and was not only able to have a nice conversation, but also got some shots of me...just being me.
Maybe this is something that will get easier with practice, knowing there is a camera on you without thinking too much about it (but enough that you don’t for example turn your back to it or something like that).
For now, this was a big step, and one that I feel was in the right direction.
Thank you for helping me take that step Wicked Mojo Photography!